important

we're moving! myself and this blog because the idea in my head for my new blog doesn't fit with my everyday thoughts of this blog. sooooo sooner than late i will be there not here but i'll let u know my new address stay tuned. See I haven't been writing because i haven't felt like it. this blog isn't satisfying me anymore i lost a follower...and i almost just bounced with no farewell BUT i have something to share and that was my original purpose in all of this so again just bare with me and i'll bbs

toodles

diamond in the back

Sunroof top...haha it's early yall. BUt so I feel GOOD, I look good, and I'm maintaining an attitude of gratitude its good for ya health. I mean do you ever just stop and just start saying thank you for everything you have? Its amazing to wake up everyday and do pretty much whatever you choose, its great to still have a job in this recession you know. I'm really feelin sympathy for Barack cause the man has a lot to take on and what's funny is I feel like America is expecting too much out of him I mean he's a black president yes, God? No! But I'm ready to see the man work sad I can't be at the inaugaration...

but what really cracks me up is facebook. You can update ur status and stuff and some ppl go overload they keep changin' theirs every 5 seconds or re-writing the same thing just re-wording it lol but the funniest thing is the names. Lisa wearenotthesame Iamamartian or Sam F. Baby theFisforFenomenal like serious? Haha those were made up by me but you get my drift I didn't realize ppl we're doing a bit too much until I saw Barbie itsnotanameitsalifestylegooglemebaby today I was like facebook approved that?! That's not the name moms and pops gave u! Lmsao ppl ppl are so entertaining.

I got more JUICE for yall l8r though some good stuff to keep in the back pocket for safe keeping mkay Toodles.

Oops

so ignore the last post full of only half of what I really wanted to say. Sooo being from Oakland and all it's only right that I talk about Oscar Grant. If you don't know who he is or the whole story google my friends. But quick overview-on New Years this hayward native was shot by an officer, bart police he was unarmed and...youtube it and find out the rest. But so the streets of Oakland have been in an uproar there have been riots and marches etc. they want justice! But tearin up shit to me is not the way to do it. For those who didn't know the Black Panthers originated in Oakland and they were BADD I mean true fighters you know and so I say we revive that spirit get TOUGH and fight fa real. I mean why not strike Bart and don't give them fools no more of our money or vandalize the bart stations like have secret meetings and come up with a real plan...ugh!

other news: So my point is proven yet again. STOP blogging if you have nothing interesting to say or your saying the same thing as everybody else. DON'T blog just to do it. noooo I shouldn't come to ur blog and never want to come back because it was so uninteresting and unoriginal ugh I shouldn't come to ur blog looking for pictures(unless u have a pic. blog) to spark my interest because your words just seem like blah blah get outta here! Find something better to do with your time than doing what everybody else is. Oh boy does that word swag make me cringe! One of my co-workers was sayin' dudes from the town got swag and ugh I kinda stopped and laughed ha P.S. you know you don't need to have a blog if you don't even take the time to spell check DAMN!

Boop boop be doop..whapaaa!

I got a problem...

I like to fuck.....

loljkjk BUT i do love mental stimulation and when a man can make love to my mind that shit gets me off!!! lmao I crack myself up but that's real something that I just love is conversations/topics that make me think! wow but today was pretty much WONDERFUL!!! I woke up early again but I got food on the gov. until which I mean can't get no better and that was apart of my goals for 2009 to save which means I have to spend less right. so now that I get to save the money I would be spendin' on food I can hopefully be doing a bit more shopping!!! clothes shopping. I MISSS H&M so much! Like that's my top store then UO but yep and then I worked the reg. at work today which was coo and I just couldn't stop smiling this morning. I feel this year is going to bring many big and good things to me I'm just waiting for love though..

attract what you want into your life and be thankful for EVERYTHING you have..I am blessed

Thank You readers

Long day

or so it seems it's 7:39 pm and I woke up at 6 am and was on the move to repeat the same shit I already been through once before! grr I better be getting FREE FOOD on the gov. after this. So my life needs a makeover! I need a damn social life and i'm afraid I may join a sorority just for this reason even though that's not my original reason for wanting to join a sorority but i already made it my plan to get involved! once this new semseter starts I have 15 credit hrs. plus 4 that don't go towards my gpa and a job but I need more and I hope I have time for more like seriously because boredom is no fun. When I'm bored I eat...like a fuckn fat ass and i'm skinny as shit but that makes me feel fat! (don't judge me) but I probably should eat healthier and I try to get fruit and veggies..and do the 100 calorie thing but ehh that's still not really healthy with all the junk I eat and fast food it's no good but i'm ADDICTED! I seem to enjoy having a full stomach and empty wallet all due to fast food and i don't even be that damn full! aint that some mess I hate the things we have been brainwashed in to. Do u ever think what if you hadn't been taught a certain way or if certain values weren't instilled in you what kind of person would u be? Religion for instance ppl go to church every sunday, bible study during the week BUT they only do these things because their parents are preachers and stuff like what if their parents weren't preachers would they still be as religious as they are?..that's the type of stuff I think about but today I had the most interesting thought of all and it was about relationships-friendships. Like you have friends but each one offers something diff. Like you have your friend you go to for advice, your friend you look up to, your friend that you can relate to like each person in your life brings something diff. to the table and the way your relationship is never changes like the person you look up to maybe you guys won't be friends anymore if you get to where you wanna be and start lookin up to somebody else you know. Like that's hella complex the relationships we have they're serious and really make us who we are. So I tend to call most ppl I associate myself with friend but everybody is not friend. Like there's the associate who u maybe only deal with because you have to-classmate, teammate and what have you, then there's the homegirl/homeboy who you hang with chat it up with here and there they like hold you over when your friends aren't around yall cool but they're not quite friend, and then there's the friend duh the person you can tell any and everything to, the person you trust, the person you keep in touch with have had experiences with, grown, they know you...but why are we so quick to just call a person a friend? maybe it's just me but I do and then you know there's an attitude that goes along with the label the friend you're balls out and totally free with, honest etc. but you can't treat a non-friend like that they not ready, not the right person. So I have some attitude and re-naming to do since I finally figured this whole thing out. Ha go me!

I still need a life though because the more I sit in the more I hate it! I hate damn myspace and how it's so FAKE and stupid it's like a damn picture competition or something like the whole true concept is really LAME and i don't know why I can't just delete my account already it's like i've become attached to these photoshopped faces ugh! And then facebook now it's more interesting more of a real thing to me because 97% of my "friends" on there I actually know whether they be associate, homey, or friend I have actually seen these ppl talked to them etc. so it's better and I like reading ppls statuses but i've gained an addiction to that place too, and then there's blog world I do the same thing everyday go down my same list of blogs half of which aren't updated daily and the other half are but it's not exciting anymore everybody has one and though most of the ones I like all offer diff. things it's just the fact that the blogging world is no longer a secret society it really eats me up. Blah Hi there reader I'd love to hear from you sometime..

Sex and the City

another one of my many addictions.(still working on that post) But since I haven't been working this week =/ I've been trying to accomplish my mini to-do list and i'm doing pretty darn good. All my grades have finally been posted! 3.2 whoot whoot also "ww" to my FOUR followers lol I know it'll pickup soon I've been posting a few non-anonymous comments lately lol. Real World Brooklyn! Hmm a VERY deep ass show which I find funny but coo. a bit weird I think this season will be the most diff. I hate waiting a whole week for the next episode that is whack! I also hate how I can't watch bad girls club, gossip girls, or real housewives of ATL online. wtfunk? So there's this guy who I met in the summer and i gave him a fake name and I gave him one too lol but recently ol' boy hits me up like wassup this is _____ and i'm like idk who this is. don't know but 1 ______ and this isn't him! lol so after I get a phone call from him AGAIN yesterday he's like just look in ur phone I know u have me old # but this my new one just look blah so I say we'll i feel stupid because I don't know you..by that name so when i figure it out i'll call so I look and yep had the boys old # under another name! And i found it hilarious but the fake name was simple but corny and his real name is simple, common, and it was just dumb of him to give me some fake name anyways you know like I had several reasons for giving him a falsey but so I txt him like I know who u are but u told me your name was ___ not ___ and i try to start a convo. and the fool doesn't txt me back which i thought was funny too but yea that's my most recent excitement! Besides my wal-mart adventures today..ehh

Horoscopes does anybody else read those? Well I heart cosmo and they have this bed side astrologer booklet and i read mines and the situation with summer boy was predicted early that's why i found the situation even more funny But I absolutely love reading my horo. so true to my Aquarian nature.

But i'm gonna get back to SATC toodles
-Faceless

until then

well UNTIL i find me a new blog home I'm here. As much as I hate it! But i'd rather be able to delete all this with one button then have to burn some little black book(journal).....ehh. So the topic of the day is guys! I don't understand them =/ I'm probably not supposed to but I should be able to have some type of personal fact book with TRUTHS about the opposite sex not me turning stereotypes into real things...I'm so naive in this department and how sad seeing as though i'm almost 20(1 month exactly) but this can't be good! and to be honest I'm tired of it I wonder do I need to be dicked down one good time or what. Not only do I not understand males but like I have no really ultra significant relationships to dwell on I think..I get nervous and don't know how to interact with guys ESPECIALLY ones I have some physical attraction to. I act all weird around guys though like no matter what minus the bestfriend i'm completely comfortable around him head scarf and all but I wish I could be that way with other guys although he tends to remind me i'm doing it all wrong! But he accepts me..I'm afraid i'll be a grown ass woman and single and I can't live without but I have no idea WHAT to do i'm seriously LOST! and it's not even that i'm ugly i just am seriously unexperienced! period. I also get bored easily and am not a very emotional type gal which brings even more headache. I am defensive because I am not a fan of rejection and i'm just getting no where in the dating scene because trust me it's time I have a man. I want one and probably at this point NEED one for learning purposes if nothing else.

HELP!

-Ms. Single

repeat?

did i write about my obsession to true life. I'm totally waiting for my opp. to be on the show lol no but seriously I LOVE this show and the re-runs ha so me! ohh and Daddy's Girls I totally forgot about them my last POST so I think me and Angela are twins. we are hella alike! && i had heard about that break-up but was shocked to find out more didn't think it'd be over that soon....hmm.

Am I mistaken?

Is it NOT 2009? because ppl are not here yet or somethin'. I mean ok we're only 5 days in but the word SWAG has been used since Dipset started their career..so get updated! Wayne and whoever else didn't coin the phrase get familiar. Also if you're an upperclassmen in college or i'll cut some slack and say 25+ what are you doing still wearing graphic tees? Like BE SERIOUS! You are a GROWN man!!! this goes for women too you shouldn't be wearin long ass wild ass fake nails and doing things that are not age appropriate like honestly. You are not a teenager anymore! STOP IT!! Some things just get to be ridiculous. But lets get on sooooo I've been talking to my guy bestey a bit more lately and I've had NOTHING to talk about!!! Which is horrible! && he's been falling asleep on me!!! Like it's cute to me though but not what bestfriends do...and ahhh I'm wondering about this girls and guys can be just friends! but we can we are! so I say it's possible butt....so I have this sweatshirt from my previous school and I swear it's a guy magnet like I just realized but when I wear it to places other than school ppl notice and they want me!!! lmao soo this might be my new "magnet" hahahahaha seriously doe. what else ahh I was looking for a new home for this here blog because that will help motivate me into dedicting more and not wanting to just give this all up for the readers sake(now that i know I have some) and it's hard the main places are here and wordpress and that sucks! because they're too popular! eww turn-off! so that's my latest dilemma! But wait! True Beauty is soooooo good! Just aired on ABC tonight and I'm an instant fan! I think that black man is going to win, we'll see though. I just don't get the whole fat man trapped in a skinny mans body ehh INSECURITIESSSS Kanye said it best(as always) "The prettiest ppl do the ugliest things" and it's funny too "pretty" ppl seem to have the most insecurities which is insane but I myself have also been a victim it happens when u rely on external things for validation. not a good look.

I need a sugar daddy bahh

Back...

ok so let me explain all of this because clearly in the day or so that I haven't blogged i've been doing a lot of thinking but didn't have a true urge to write I was in fact serious. BUT I may keep this going IF i ever start that darn myspace I was talking about you know for promotion purposes. but being an Aquarius and just ME I get bored with things easily now when I started my first blog it was great then summer came and I got a life. so buh-bye to that blog then I started another blog but due to HATERS i hate to delete but for some reason I just couldn't stay away and you know I started to realize this blogging thing was getting a bit more popular and at first it was coo and well the rest i explained so part boredom and part popularity made me wanna say screw YOU blogging world. But i ws going through my blogroll again and although I am disappointed in many of the blogs I follow I did find other seasoned bloggers feel the way I do =/ which makes me feel a bit better. So I can't promise I'll be posting everyday like usual but I might be able to make this thing work. Its just I was thinking. I'm not a writer except poetry I don't want to share my work on this level though, and Idk if this is the way I want to write thought maybe i'll transfer to a new outler maybe its that everybody is either on blogger or wordpress that bothers me. Anywho my plan is to figure out exactly what I want this blog to be fa real and go with that i'm almost positive i'm moving away from here though that will make me happier I think...

but so if ur not in high school any longer don't u miss it? I miss my 1st 2yrs. it was everything I thought it would be and more! I was a female jock lol cheerleader, b-ball, track, cross country, weightlifting, whaa and didn't appreciate it while i was there!! Man if I could do it again!!! and I decided I want a kid. If I could afford it i'd adopt right now I mean I want my own kids but I also am sure i'll adopt. I absolutely LOVE kids they make me so happy!!! I believe i'm getting closer to figuring my lifes purpose out yep still got my head right on my new years goals..

Hey followers!!! ttys

Hault!!!!

what kind of FUCKERY is this? no seriously. I mean this blog is my thoughts as they are fresh out my mind and onto this here white space. But I may just need to get a journal. I can't be apart of this, not right now maybe never again. I love to read these blogs but that's my point I just went through my daily blog roll all of which I "secretly" follow and I'm disgusted upset and have lost all interest to be apart of this on the writers end at least. I'm seriously unsettled by the idea of this newfound craze!! No noooo. so if I stay I will go insane so for my sanity sake i'll see you around

AHHHH!!!

..."What's your addiction? Is it money? Is it girls? Is it weed?I've been afflicted.." so wtf! my addiction is friggin MickeyD's apple pies and I don't understand it! But I tell u I called to see what time they closed 2night and almost got in an accident trying to speed and get my 2 for 1 before they closed and guess what!? them mofos aint have no more no caramel sunday neiver so I settled for a double beef burrito from taco bell! blah like this is NO good! I went on 6yr. strike AGAINST McDonalds and ever since fall of '07 aka my 1st yr. of college I can't seem to get enough! but enough about food

I found my way back HOME HOME and it was GREAT!!! i got to eat MORE gumbo and see alll the fam which was BOMB! of course and no work for 2 days =D. I'm done with these blogs that ppl don't update that's what i'm talking about ppl hop on the damn bandwgon and don't belong! Its like thick/fat ppl wearin high waist denim and things its not a good look! STOP IT!!! this blogging world is serious man and speaking of that I need to get on my game and recruit some followers because as much as I write for myself I also write for the ppl and well seemingly there's been NO ppl but myself *cough* yes I'm Ms. Sacramento gotdammit. I don't want this blog to fail miserably because I find it a great outlet for my daily ramblings I might have to switch it up though make a better them and do some adjustments. Yea that's it. It's '09 this is my 3rd blog and I wanna be big and have 105 comments to read and respond to tooo!!! Hello

Hahahahah I absolutely LOVE runs house the funniest show ever! Justine cracks me up!!!!! and don't you just LOVE run's inspirational quotes! thee best! umm wait wait so I'm DETERMINED to gets me a man this year. before summer hopefully. I mean realistically finding a man BEFORE valentines day and actually building something with him is more like unrealistic more later I gotta figure this dilemma out!

Peace