repeat?

did i write about my obsession to true life. I'm totally waiting for my opp. to be on the show lol no but seriously I LOVE this show and the re-runs ha so me! ohh and Daddy's Girls I totally forgot about them my last POST so I think me and Angela are twins. we are hella alike! && i had heard about that break-up but was shocked to find out more didn't think it'd be over that soon....hmm.

Am I mistaken?

Is it NOT 2009? because ppl are not here yet or somethin'. I mean ok we're only 5 days in but the word SWAG has been used since Dipset started their career..so get updated! Wayne and whoever else didn't coin the phrase get familiar. Also if you're an upperclassmen in college or i'll cut some slack and say 25+ what are you doing still wearing graphic tees? Like BE SERIOUS! You are a GROWN man!!! this goes for women too you shouldn't be wearin long ass wild ass fake nails and doing things that are not age appropriate like honestly. You are not a teenager anymore! STOP IT!! Some things just get to be ridiculous. But lets get on sooooo I've been talking to my guy bestey a bit more lately and I've had NOTHING to talk about!!! Which is horrible! && he's been falling asleep on me!!! Like it's cute to me though but not what bestfriends do...and ahhh I'm wondering about this girls and guys can be just friends! but we can we are! so I say it's possible butt....so I have this sweatshirt from my previous school and I swear it's a guy magnet like I just realized but when I wear it to places other than school ppl notice and they want me!!! lmao soo this might be my new "magnet" hahahahaha seriously doe. what else ahh I was looking for a new home for this here blog because that will help motivate me into dedicting more and not wanting to just give this all up for the readers sake(now that i know I have some) and it's hard the main places are here and wordpress and that sucks! because they're too popular! eww turn-off! so that's my latest dilemma! But wait! True Beauty is soooooo good! Just aired on ABC tonight and I'm an instant fan! I think that black man is going to win, we'll see though. I just don't get the whole fat man trapped in a skinny mans body ehh INSECURITIESSSS Kanye said it best(as always) "The prettiest ppl do the ugliest things" and it's funny too "pretty" ppl seem to have the most insecurities which is insane but I myself have also been a victim it happens when u rely on external things for validation. not a good look.

I need a sugar daddy bahh

Back...

ok so let me explain all of this because clearly in the day or so that I haven't blogged i've been doing a lot of thinking but didn't have a true urge to write I was in fact serious. BUT I may keep this going IF i ever start that darn myspace I was talking about you know for promotion purposes. but being an Aquarius and just ME I get bored with things easily now when I started my first blog it was great then summer came and I got a life. so buh-bye to that blog then I started another blog but due to HATERS i hate to delete but for some reason I just couldn't stay away and you know I started to realize this blogging thing was getting a bit more popular and at first it was coo and well the rest i explained so part boredom and part popularity made me wanna say screw YOU blogging world. But i ws going through my blogroll again and although I am disappointed in many of the blogs I follow I did find other seasoned bloggers feel the way I do =/ which makes me feel a bit better. So I can't promise I'll be posting everyday like usual but I might be able to make this thing work. Its just I was thinking. I'm not a writer except poetry I don't want to share my work on this level though, and Idk if this is the way I want to write thought maybe i'll transfer to a new outler maybe its that everybody is either on blogger or wordpress that bothers me. Anywho my plan is to figure out exactly what I want this blog to be fa real and go with that i'm almost positive i'm moving away from here though that will make me happier I think...

but so if ur not in high school any longer don't u miss it? I miss my 1st 2yrs. it was everything I thought it would be and more! I was a female jock lol cheerleader, b-ball, track, cross country, weightlifting, whaa and didn't appreciate it while i was there!! Man if I could do it again!!! and I decided I want a kid. If I could afford it i'd adopt right now I mean I want my own kids but I also am sure i'll adopt. I absolutely LOVE kids they make me so happy!!! I believe i'm getting closer to figuring my lifes purpose out yep still got my head right on my new years goals..

Hey followers!!! ttys

Hault!!!!

what kind of FUCKERY is this? no seriously. I mean this blog is my thoughts as they are fresh out my mind and onto this here white space. But I may just need to get a journal. I can't be apart of this, not right now maybe never again. I love to read these blogs but that's my point I just went through my daily blog roll all of which I "secretly" follow and I'm disgusted upset and have lost all interest to be apart of this on the writers end at least. I'm seriously unsettled by the idea of this newfound craze!! No noooo. so if I stay I will go insane so for my sanity sake i'll see you around

AHHHH!!!

..."What's your addiction? Is it money? Is it girls? Is it weed?I've been afflicted.." so wtf! my addiction is friggin MickeyD's apple pies and I don't understand it! But I tell u I called to see what time they closed 2night and almost got in an accident trying to speed and get my 2 for 1 before they closed and guess what!? them mofos aint have no more no caramel sunday neiver so I settled for a double beef burrito from taco bell! blah like this is NO good! I went on 6yr. strike AGAINST McDonalds and ever since fall of '07 aka my 1st yr. of college I can't seem to get enough! but enough about food

I found my way back HOME HOME and it was GREAT!!! i got to eat MORE gumbo and see alll the fam which was BOMB! of course and no work for 2 days =D. I'm done with these blogs that ppl don't update that's what i'm talking about ppl hop on the damn bandwgon and don't belong! Its like thick/fat ppl wearin high waist denim and things its not a good look! STOP IT!!! this blogging world is serious man and speaking of that I need to get on my game and recruit some followers because as much as I write for myself I also write for the ppl and well seemingly there's been NO ppl but myself *cough* yes I'm Ms. Sacramento gotdammit. I don't want this blog to fail miserably because I find it a great outlet for my daily ramblings I might have to switch it up though make a better them and do some adjustments. Yea that's it. It's '09 this is my 3rd blog and I wanna be big and have 105 comments to read and respond to tooo!!! Hello

Hahahahah I absolutely LOVE runs house the funniest show ever! Justine cracks me up!!!!! and don't you just LOVE run's inspirational quotes! thee best! umm wait wait so I'm DETERMINED to gets me a man this year. before summer hopefully. I mean realistically finding a man BEFORE valentines day and actually building something with him is more like unrealistic more later I gotta figure this dilemma out!

Peace

goodbye 2008

Hello 2009,

it feels goood to say that and be 28 min. away from this new year! And i'm very thankful as I am for everyday. I sadly have entered this new year with debts but I shoul be settled Friday. Payday!!! the best day of the week seriously. but I've got to stop living check to check that is my biggest goal this year to SAVE!!! its not so much I've been spending I just have BILLS like $800 or so in bills every month and that's probably a low estimate and so I've had no money in the bank the whole latter part of this year and I haven't had anything extr for spending for pleasure and so I hope to change all that. Wish me luck! but let's see I'm having a party in my pajamas 2night because I don't and didn't have ny plans I usually spend the new years eve with the mom but not this year =/ so I sit here blogging and watching clueless and I promise this will be the last time I skip social events it's a new year and time for me to be a social butterfly!!! enough. not that I don't enjoy my alone time but come on I'm the only child....ok and I spent time reflecting on this year in a kind rewind/ffwd kinda motion and it was all cool but it's behind me now I have these urges to wanna change things right now just because its the new year but that's so ugh to me so when I get sick of this layout i'll change it and when I feel like it I'll make a new myspace but right now I'm fine...you know ppl act like oh its the new year so everything will just magically change over night. NOT! like stop with the false dreams already

side note: *hetero* but isn't Stacey Dash GORGEOUS!!!!I wonder if she's had work done because even to this day the woman is BOMB!

sry about that but I also decided that I need to form my definition of friend or at least not call everyone I know a friend like there are associates, co-workers, peers, etc. and I think these people should be addressed by their respective titles when generally speaking so that's something I wanna get together. I feel as though I'm rambling so HNY!

until next time-

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although i'm going to include some of my resolution here i'd rather not use the title resolution or NYE wtf I hate that one...but so today I got nothing accomplished! all i did was friggin sleep for approx. 12hrs. i went to bed at 7 and didn't officilly get out of ped until 7pm except the quick run to the bathroom and occassionl toss and turn from my whooping cough. I am rarely "sick" and when I am I absolutely hate it! so I don't understand why ppl have 2 phones and not 2 jobs or any REAL reason to..and I also cannot stand pocketless jeans I freak out when I see anyone non-mexican wearing them...I'm not racist please don't get offended. I wonder if I'm loosing readers becuse these past 2 days I've been a bit daring, contriversial etc. well whatever. So I was so excited for these 2 days off so I could get some stuff done but sadly I didn't do a damn thing! which really sucks and that's what breaks are for but that's just not cool especially because I do have a few things I should do I don't absolutely HAVE to except that one thing but they will be beneficial...anywho can't cry over spilt milk just step it up hopefully this new year will give me the motivation to do so. But I said all that to say I'm happy to be working tomorrow because as of now it's my only social outlet I mean I would hate hanging with majority of ppl I work with outside of work but it's [fun] while i'm there...

But lets talk about resolutions: *note* this will be exactly like all the other posts you've seen on this topic pretty much including the share ur resolutions with me at the end*

Here goes my New Years Resolutions
-be positive! no matter what anything negative will be unknown and if it comes my way I will turn it into a positive
-focus on my wants, nothing else-this kinda ties in to being positive
-practice attraction-now since I read the secret I've been trying my best to do this and for the most part it's been working but I think I could meditate and focus on things more than I have so Ima try to devote myself to meditating at least once a day
-get a man! it's been too long dammit Ima be 20 and I REFUSE to go another year without a valentine
-be more social, maybe it's because I'm the only child or whatever so I don't mind being alone but honestly i don't think this much alone time is healthy I mean I need a real social life and I plan to get one!
-find my lifes purpose-this also goes with my focusing on what I want I mean I have 2.5 yrs. left of undergraduate approx. and it's about that time for me to know EXCTLY what I want to do the way I thought I did when I first got to college and decided to major in Bio.
-do what makes me happy-that means being HONEST with everyone no matter what, and enjoying only and everything that makes me happy. Too often I compromise myself for others and that stops now! fa real fa real
-NO MORE COMPLAINING it annoys me when I hear myself and it doesn't seem appealing to anyone else either so i'm done!

I think those are most important because those are what I remember and have in my mind so those are what REALLY count right...soooooo what are ur plans, goals, etc. for the new year??

P.S. are blogs starting to run together? is everyone writing about the same things?