Insomniaaa

bam bam beeda *singing to the disturbia beat* lol

so its close to 430 am and i'm still awake which is really no suprise..I slept all day and did nothing productive besides run to the store and cook rice. lol but why i can't sleep is 1.i'm afraid 2.i'm upset..

i'm afraid i will not be able to get a mate who will turn into my husband. because all men are gay!!! no not true! none of that but that all seems like it could be a reality. There's this man who dances and is quite entertaining on youtube-nv69 and well long story short he has a site and pictures of men [x-rated] and well i don't know who's gay or who's not on that list and more importantly in the world. well with so many people being on the downlow, undecided, and/or concealing their identity everyday for many reasons it's SCARY very! ugh...but i'm deleting this fear out of my mind because i'd hate to attract that fa real ....