ugh the FRUSTRATION!!!

do you know what it's like to not be able to fully express yourself like you can you have the right but you're afraid in a way and you analyze the situation and just keep the shit to yourself and are mad!? I'm sure you do

But let me explain there's this guy that I liked and although I left him behind due to my re-location I kinda knew we had a connection and wondered what would become of it. Well know I know it kinda all hit me like a ton of bricks...so I've gotten over my ex. I love myself and my life at this point but there's this boy this damn boy who's miles away who is haunting me in a way. Like I don't think of him everyday but ever so often I do especially when I'm writing and then to make matters worse today I read a poem Balance by Nikki Giovanni and shit that is exactly what I been wanting to say but she said it so perfectly and so I almost posted it on fb and tagged the guy then thought what's the use because I tried that before a while back and recentyl and no response either time but then it wasn't so bad because I sorta kinda got a reaction in person but now I don't know what he's thinking how he's feeling maybe he moved on but there was nothing really ever there besides a connection but that's something and all I can do is over analyze the damn situation and no response from him how unfair it is. I mean certain times you can only be so obvious without actually coming out and saying it you know. And I thought about that to but I gotta big EGO lmao no but seriously that will hurt if I pour my fuckin heart out and get no response like poems are one thing and if I tag a few people and him but if I were to write him something personal like in his inbox...that's risking too much! so i'm stuck aint shit i could do but keep writing my damn poems and i could tag him but i don't want everyone in my biz you know and he's an asshole really so it suxz!!!! Ahhh somebody help!

what should i do?...