sneeze, sniffle

yay! I have a followe which makes me soooooo happy! i don't think anyone followed my last blog besides my boo and if they did they didnt make themselves known =/ but yes Hey! lol

so its winter and i rarely get "sick" but i've had the sniffles twice this year, this month i believe but i've never experienced not being able to tatse my food but this morning I was eating a nice little breakfast and couldn't taste any of it! mainly because my nose is all stopped up and I had just read somewhere the other day something about our smell affects our taste and that's why we like things we eat or we don't the way it smells but if u can't smell u can't taste. weird! but mhmm I almost didn't post today but I was about to go to bed and couldn't without writing 1st...so this is nothing new but I continuously find a new blog everyday now some are hit and miss but for the most part i have a compiliation of blogspots in my favorites that i visit everyday but today I came across this one blog that is dedicated to HATING on Beyonce which I find insanely ridiculous! like I imagine some low self-esteem female the culprit. its just so disgusting! HATERS like the lengths they will go to...wow. and ok Myspace. I am getting tired of it and that's not even the word like its everything I hate x 10,000 its so FAKE and just plain stupid. I feel like everybody on myspace minus the artists and people like that have NO lives. every picture they have is photoshopped and retouched, everybody has the same quotes and headlines, everybody thinks they are the bombest of the bomb and feel they HAVE to let everyone know via myspace, people break-up over myspace, get their identitiy stolen on myspace its like all the worlds evils in one place ugh! how sickening and I don't think I can take it anymore I promise in '09 I am making a new myspace strictly dedicated to this blog because I'd love to have more readers and followers.....other than that FUCK myspace. I prefer facebook because majority of my friends on there I actually know and have talked to, sat in classroms with, partied with etc. like its not some wonderful world of make believe hollywood fairytale gone wrong type thing. but you know blogging is becoming the new phenom lately and that's annoying me to! like I just HATE when things become overrated and everybody jumps on the bandwagon its looses its sexy...lol

but positivity: I wrote out some goals but these are things I've been kinda slowly but surely making my way to working on but just needed a reason and time and things to put it in to play-blah cut the bull(I was waiting for this new year to come around just like everybody else so I could make changes in my life) but contradictory I don't understand at all why people wait until the new year to make changes like everyday brings new opportunity, change, and whatever else you want it to and that is why although I do make that list-actually I ussually don't and therefore I am constantly making changes whenever I find it neccesary. but I guess my point is don't worry so much about making some list of "goals" and whatnot that you're most likely not going to refer to nor stick to but rather just appreciate everyday and chnage what you can when you can. good enough?

i feel like I really need to move but not if out of California i mean maybe out of the US I wish we could really live on mars or something eventhough EVERYBODY would want to do it because Wayne said it ugh but like I seriously need to escape this I honestly can't handle this society and the way it works. its so like draining and uninspiring...originality doesn't exist anymore not spoken at least...the way people hate themselves and basically live to be anything but themselves really like kills my spirit and hurts my soul its just so sad and leaves me wondering and questioning. I guess its no wonder why I don't have tons of friends and things its hard to find like minded individuals, real ppl that I can be my real self around...smh *nobody understands my struggle*

"back then if you had a car, you was the chi-town version of Baby but I was just a virgin a baby..." Rob & Big are HILARIOUS!!! my kind of humor